So suffocated.

I don’t want this anymore.

I just want to be free.

Did we move to quickly?

Not with the kisses

Or the heavy breaths

Not even the act of entangling

But the act of love

Is this really it?

So much uncommon

But the lust pulls us close

Is it blinding us?

You’ve become so protective

So defensive

The thought of causing you pain

Kills me inside

But the thought that I’m wrong 

About this

All of this

Is tearing me to pieces

And the thought that always comes to my mind

Every hour of every day

Is this too quick?

Terrifying

Unsure

Is it worth it?

Too deep in

With one foot always out

4 letters

Bloomed into my mind

And instantly destroyed me

Tearing me apart

Leaving me bare

Weak

Unguarded

Against future pain

Where my walls end

His begin

4 Letters

Crumbling everything

A once empty word

Now filled with so much

Emotion and certainty 

Questions asked

Answers unimportant

You are here

You are mine

Distance

Were you ever real?

It’s been too long

You’ve gone too far.

When you will leave

I will be strong

I will go on

Distance

Inevitable.

The past will leak into the future

Feed on it

Make it weak.

The damage

Is interior

Crawls out 

Makes you weak.

There is no running away

No escape

Simply the design

Of what will destroy my life.

To late to change anything

To weak to end it all

To hopeful for a different ending

Knowing that it will never leave.

Part of me

Part of my story

What’s written is scars.

Forever lingering in your mind

Causing insanity

Unstableness 

Mistrust

and failure. 

If you’re just gonna post about us trying to talk

and then tag it as “bitches”

Okay. Done trying with you.

I miss you already

and usually thinking about you makes me happy

but instead I’m on the verge of tears because we have no way of contacting each other for 2 weeks

Quick to forgive,

Quick to bare,

Quick to entangle,

Slow to fall.

Snow that falls,

Ice that slips,

Lonely walks to

A night I could not resist.

Intense emotions,

Strong Attachments,

4 more months till the end.

Where are we going?

Where have we been?

Questions that linger in the air.

Will you be there when I wake?

Will you stay while I sleep?